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Lol not getting anything done (for Daisho).

I'm so unmotivated. It's horrible. Sometimes, I'm inspired, but I can't get myself to draw at least one thing every day. It's so hard... I've been having so much personal issues, and I'm sure that's the problem. I'm an emotional artist (I draw best when I'm full of emotions) but not when I'm stress/angry/worried... which I have been (a lot) lately. I also feel like my art is going nowhere. I'm at a slump. It's not improving and it's steadily getting worse... It's not even staying stable!
I've also gone as far as looking up ways to stop procrastinating and how to stay motivated... But it's not working... I want to get things done, but whatever I'm creating looks like crap...
But once I get over this slump, I will have to (openly) open up commissions.

I just have a lot of problems, hahaha. I'm so down, but I need to look up! Things will get better!!!! I've already come this far!!

Thanks for always reading my journals. I really appreciate it. I feel like I've been so disconnected from the people I've used to talk to. I'm sorry. I would like to talk to you all again. How have you guys been? I really miss you guys. ;__; So lonely...
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Personally, I don't think forcing yourself to create any type of art (a picture, a story, etc.) is a good idea, since the quality will only turn out bad. Since you're an emotional artist, creating your art while you feel down will most likely make the work turn out no good.

I know it is a pain, not being able to do anything, however, even when there's a deadline it is often best not to push yourself. I kind of think of it as pushing yourself to walk properly with a broken leg, I mean, you'd only make things worse. Maybe I'm wrong, but this is just my honest opinion.

I've had similar times where nothing I draw (if I do draw) turns out alright. My suggestion is, not to judge your artwork. I have personally found that to be a big mistake. You need to believe in yourself. Obviously, if you feel unhappy with your low productiveness, you'll end up hating yourself for it. Relaxing and getting rid of the negative energy inside you is a good way to enable beautiful artworks to come out.

These are just suggestions though. I don't want to say too much in case it is bothersome.
However, I am genuinely concerned with your problem.
I hope it goes away.